How To Deal With Shame On A Subconscious Level

When you don’t even know what it means

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A person in my life has been triggering an automatic response from me, and it’s been happening repetitively. It’s a pattern. Same pattern, different people.

My only clue is that when I’m triggered, I feel like I’ve been punched in the stomach and I’m going to throw up. I’m used to this feeling and feeling this way about things, situations, people, etc. I’ve obviously been storing this up for a long time, ignoring it and hoping it will just go away. Since this person who is currently annoying me is a client, the old me would just fire her. That’s a easy out. A way to make the bad feeling go away, without having to deal with it.

My only clue is that when I’m triggered, I feel like I’ve been punched in the stomach and I’m going to throw up.

The clue I’ve been given is small, but I have the spiritual tools and knowledge now on how to dig deeper and do a little investigating. My response is a classic naval chakra symptom. This means there’s a blockage or imbalance. The naval chakra, located a couple inches above your belly button, governs self esteem. It’s all about power and control, feeling confident in who you are, being able to set healthy boundaries, feeling like you are in control of your life, and managing stressful…